“Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves
and take up their cross daily and follow me."
Luke 9:23
The cost of love
again collects
against the off-kilter
eons of our dense egos.
From the beginning
and now
we struggle in our deficit
to love radically,
to go against the hatred
that coils
in our dark
dysfunctions within,
our resistance to meet violence,
in all its guises,
with the strong hands of kindness;
the taking up of our crosses;
the dangerous consequences
of love.
It's been a week of inner struggle against anger and hurt. Often, it has been so bitter that I despaired at my sinfulness and inability to rise above it. I asked Our Lady of Fatima, Why is it that I am struggling so much to forgive and let go? Why am I falling and rising so often?
ReplyDeleteI think she has spoken through you, yet again....our resistance to meet violence in all its guises is the taking up of our crosses.
And suddenly, the struggle has gentled into hope. It is still there, but because of Torpor, I now know my battle is a prayer.